Just when it feels like we're on to something with our medicinal concoction and Brady is feeling better, he has another rough night. Tonight Brady's breathing is really heavy and he sounds congested. I'm keeping a close eye on him but I feel so helpless! My poor sweet boy is fighting so hard and I hate that he's going through this! I pray that I'm doing right by him and that God will give me the strength to make the right choices! I know I keep asking, but I'd be really grateful for some extra prayers and positive thoughts tonight!
Brady is home and feeling better. His blood work was good as well as his BP & pulse. Hoping his new medicine will start to do the trick soon but if not, we'll have to double the dose. :( Appreciate the prayers and well wishes! I know this isn't easy on his little heart and body and we're praying that he stays strong and is with us for a very long time! ♥ Here he is sitting in Kaci's first carrier right before his episode... He says that real men feel secure in pink!
Would appreciate prayers! Brady has a 3pm appt. scheduled today but I just dropped him off early because he's having another "episode" of wobbles and lameness... I'm so scared! </3
This is Moofin. Moofin recently lost his battle with HCM. Here's Moofin's story told by his human.
"Moofin threw a blood clot that paralyzed his back legs last night. I came home after work and he was great- took his medication and drank his fave goat milk. As I was eating my dinner I noticed he was moving in an odd manner, so I jumped up to see what had happened.
He wasn't moving his back legs and seemed drained of energy. He just wanted to lay on his side and close his eyes.
We wrapped him in a soft blanket and took him to the ER. I had read countless times on how painful clots can be- pure agony. So a part of me thought maybe it wasn't a clot and this could somehow be resolved, as he didn't appear to be in pain.
We had a dr who had trained under Dr muers at Washington state, so had a decent amount of experience with HCM. I was thankful for this. She said with how his heart looked, and how dead his back legs were, we should consider euthanasia.
I knew while I was carrying him up to the ER, that this is what I was coming to do- as much as my heart screamed no, this wasn't about me. It was about Moof. Dr told me they could give him something for pain but could do nothing to dissolve the clot or reverse the damage the clot had caused, and if by some chance we could get his back legs working again his quality of life would suffer and another clot would be just around the corner.
They gave him something to relax him for the catheter. I held him close and repeated how much I love him and to please visit me from time to time so I know he is ok. The injection was given and he slowly stopped breathing.
I wish you all could have met him, so you would know how incredibly amazing this angel was/is. I am so thankful he didn't have pain- my biggest fear was for him to need me and me not be there. It made leaving the house at all, very difficult. Thank god he went in peace.
When I got home I tried to take a shower but just stood in there and cried. We have a torch light in the master bathroom which I usually dim because it is so bright. As I stood in the shower with my eyes closed, I kept seeing different light intensities through my eyelids. I opened my eyes and the torch light brightened, then dimmed, then brightened. It did this several more times before my shower ended.
This may not make sense to some and perhaps you will laugh, but I feel this was Moof letting me know he was ok and made it. This light has never dimmed or brightened by itself. He knows how much I needed to "hear" from him, and I am so grateful for this.
My best friend, I will love you until the day my heart stops beating, and I can not wait to be with you again on the other side. Thank you for all of these amazing years you have given me- all the smiles, the love, the laughs, purrs, cries, all of it. Till we meet again, my love ♥"
RIP gorgeous Moofin! ♥
We're headed back to the vet again. Have to have Brady's meds filled and get the heart scan results to him... Hoping we can give Brady a very happy and healthy life like he deserves! <3 He was so good at the heart clinic and it breaks my heart to know that this sweet little guy still has to fight an unfair fight... HCM knows no age, color, breed... HCM doesn't care...
Well, the scans are done. The Cardiologist has recommended adding another medication to Brady's daily cocktails as he still has fluids in his lungs. This will make 4 medicines one to twice per day for our little guy. He doesn't deserve this! God help me stay strong!! </3 Have to re-scan in another 6-12 months and have blood/urine tests done to make sure his little body is strong enough for all of these treatments.
Brady had another "episode" tonight... It wasn't as bad this time, and he seems to be okay now... We are scheduled to see the cardiologist on Saturday. Please keep him in your prayers. Thank you very much! ♥
Brady is still acting like he is stable, but one pupil is smaller than the other one again and he is shaking his back legs a lot. We are checking with the vet today to see if we need to change the dosage on the aspirin to avoid blood clots. Poor baby has been through so much and he is fighting so very hard! His will to live amazes me; I may have given up already!
Brady is feeling better and seems to be stabilizing. His breathing has improved and he is actually purring again! This is a very good sign! Our vet says that his lungs sound much better and we are staying on the double dose of lasix from here on out. Thanks again for all of your gifts, support, prayers and donations; we couldn't do this without you!